Frustration Vent Required.

Don't say I agreed to something when I did not.
You are putting words in my mouth and being unethical.

Don't try and play dirty and put the blame on us.
When you are the one who can't do project management.

If you committed something internally and can't deliver, don't point fingers at us.
We did not commit/agree to a time in the first place.

If you can't take no for an answer, too bad.
Because I don't have to agree with you.

If you can't manage a project, I feel sorry for you.
Especially if you are new, and trying hard not to screw up.

I never had such problems with your colleagues before.
So when it happens when you come in, then we don't have to say very much what's wrong.

Be defensive all you want, the world is looking.

I won't play punk and screw up stuff for you, but please at least be ethical.

People of all sorts.

One of my clients is going on maternity leave. This other lady took over, and she's just downright...

I'm not your subordinate, I don't report to you, you don't pay me, neither do you pay for our services, so don't speak to me as if I'm working for you. I'm working with you.

Stop trying to assert your authority. We don't have to do what you want. Adapt to us, not we adapt to you, so F off.

Sian.

I thought I could have a quiet day, but it turned out otherwise. Mr Boss had a finance deadline to meet and I was one of the two candidates to help him meet it. Rushed, did weird things like sending very carefully worded emails and finally got everything out by 2pm, which was post-lunch time. A macs lunch did make me feel a lil' better.

And thanks to crunch time, made an error in my quote. Feel so ambivalent doing such stuff. The emails made me feel and seem incompetent, and the error I made felt like I wasn't being my usual meticulous self. It's the same kind of feeling as I didn't do my best, and I'm feeling really bad about it.

I should learn to let go even more. Letting go has been one of the most difficult lessons to master since I was in school. I'm still learning to let go nowadays, and learning to let it go faster.

I hope this doesn't have to happen every month. ):

Drained.

Just completed my fifth month. I have successfully taken over and handling what my predecessor used to helm, with some more added to my portfolio. My boss is "very pleased". I have no doubt. With the kind of difficult/troublesome/irritating clients I am awarded with, and the ability to manage them, I actually still can knock off on average at 7pm everyday. The trade off is exhaustion, praise and a promotion.

Now I actually don't mind taking on a new project, only if you take away the extra work that I'm doing for my client, which is supposed to be their job. The time can definitely be better used at servicing my other clients. Meanwhile, spare me. I'm almost filled to the brim day in day out. No more arrowing for a while, okay?

All is okay.

Things are going okay. Work had its lull, so it's back to busy-ness. Not to mention I was "awarded" with a new troublesome account/client and given another account to manage. So hurray to 4 accounts - 3 troublesome ones, 1 unknown yet. Potentially another is coming, and I'm starting to wonder if I would be able to cope. I'd just have to give up one or the other if I can't juggle so many balls at the same time.

While this could translate to the boss thinking that I'm worthy of handling troublesome accounts or he thinks I'm capable of handling certain types of accounts, I hope he gives me more interesting ones, although I'm well coping with the boring/dry text-heavy ones. But I guess that's my contribution - taking up unpopular/troublesome/difficult-to-understand subject matter type of brands and accounts.

Having said all these, I appreciate the boss' efforts in backing me up against these clients. It's one of the main things that keep me going. If he had left me to die out there, I might not have survived. Let me take all these as part of my training and learning curve. I have always started out the difficult way, and enjoyed the sweetness of my efforts later. It should turn out to be the same for this time too.

Workaholic?

I think I have the capability to turn into one. I work hard to make sure I clear my things for the day, and prepare for any urgent stuff that is due the next day. Can I leave it till the next day? Well, I'd rush like mad in the morning if I do so. That probably isn't called being a workaholic right? It's just being responsible for your work.

I guess being a workaholic means you check your work email even after work, from home, and on weekends. I should avoid that at all costs. But now that I know how to access my webmail...

I think my life is about 70% work, 30% for everything else. Now, am I a workaholic?

Getting Rewarded.

And hard, hard work pays off. Got confirmed, got praised, got some rewards in return. Slogging for my projects were not wasted. Leaving office late almost everyday wasn't unrecognized. Anyway, mum and bro thinks that the reward is actually compensation for what I have been handling. But seriously, I do a lot more work than the others in comparison. I'm sure no one would trade their accounts for mine.

I leave office late, but have to still come in early the next day to continue slogging. People who leave earlier than me come in later than I do. My monthly billings go up to tens of thousands and I'm handling it all alone. So you can guess the amount of work I have on my shoulders.

I'm still happy anyway. The fall on the office steps (giving myself a bruise on my knee) didn't matter after getting the news. So taking up the unpopular,difficult accounts isn't that bad after all. It's a trade-off.

Why?

Why do you say things like that?

It's not about comparison between yours and mine.

I'm getting sick of hearing such things from you day-in-day-out.

Because it really sucks and drains everything out of me.

Can you just... Argh.

Last in the office, again.

Oh damn public holiday. It had to fall on the eve of my weekly meeting. Not helping when I have a meeting right smack in the afternoon, with tons of stuff to clear. So work went on and on until 9pm, until there was only me and mr boss in the office left.

I was talking to my boss yesterday, and I told him that it seems the 2 accounts I'm servicing are very unpopular accounts. And he concurred, what others have been hearing about the accounts are scaring them off. Plus the never ending work with little time to breathe.

Seems like it's always the peak period for me. I hope the lull comes soon, just two days, two days would be nice.

But work's okay, not being a bitch. I'm actually feeling good about work despite the busy-ness. :)

Work.

Work has been:

- Okay, it's just a job.

- Busy, but thank god for the help from boss.

- Tiring, I easily fall asleep every night.

- Making me look haggard from Wednesday onwards. I look fresh on Monday and it goes downhill until the weekend, and it all sets in again on Wednesday.

Been working non-stop while in the office, there is really no time to breath sometimes. Even the breather has to cut short over lunch to hit back the office earlier to clear my work.

I was slogging yesterday night till 9+ to prepare for a meeting today. Last person in the office, I hope it doesn't become a norm. And it was nice to get an appreciation message for slogging it out. It doesn't take a lot to type a few nice words but it really can make a difference. So yup, you are welcome. :D I'll do what's within my ability.