Thursday, May 29, 2008

Makeover Pictures!

Shuling asked me if I could model for her for a makeover,

And I did...

This is me, without any make up.

This was supposed to be the 'BEFORE' picture.

For goodness sake, I don't look like that.

This is how I look like after lying down for an hour after facial.

My hair got combed to the side, and from the angle it was taken,

This is probably the ugliest picture you can get...

Therefore, for a more accurate picture, please see above.

And after much makeup and grumbling from me along the way....








The Punk Chick Look!

And the credit goes to Shuling, the make up artist!

Makeover a success huh?

Yes, make up can do wonders.
I'm Still Here

Just leaving a liner or two to say that I'm still here,

Just that I've been a little overwhelmed by things that are happening this week.

I shall update as soon as I can get my brain to synchronize with blogging.

I've been busy yet happy and living life the way I want it. (:

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The Red Lantern

Over 2 days, we caught 'Raise The Red Lantern' in class.

Intriguing and much more depth within indeed.

So fast, tomorrow is the last day of lectures.

These 9 days however, seemed to take longer to pass,

Probably due to the roller coaster ride I rode.
The Turmoil

I hate the internal turmoil that comes in waves.

There's nothing I can do about it,

Nor can I control it.

Usually it is left to fade on its own as I try to concentrate on other stuff.

But the appetite and the mood goes. ):

I guess this is what happens to an impatient person.


Patience is a virtue. ARGH!
Toastmasters Convention

This was my very first Toastmasters Semi-Annual convention I attended.

With the rest of the guys at the gala dinner...

Then my second semi-annual convention last year...

This time I had the privilege to go on stage to receive an award on behalf of Shuling,

Since neither she nor the current President was there.

Some Toastmasters friends like Barry were at the convention as well...

And the past district governor, Ban Peng.

He's damn hilarious I tell you.

The 2nd time we had lesser Cheng San people there.

And even had an article featuring myself, because I was tasked to write it... *click to enlarge*

Note the difference and changes?

Toastmasters has saw my transition from JC to university,

And soon from university to career.

Anyway, to toastmasters out there,

If you haven't attended a convention before, you should!

My third convention is coming up end of the week.

Will post up photos thereafter!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Of Insulin Shots, Glucose Patches & Rides

Finally a good night's sleep yesterday.

I think I'm probably experiencing withdrawal symptoms from sugar-high.

First it was an overdose just 2 weeks back,

When insulin shots were required, but it's history now.

Before I fed myself bitter gourd.

The next day someone dangled a sweet in front of me.

Before it was gone again after the week ended.

I know what to do, I can survive with glucose patches.

P/S: I'm not diabetic, it's just a figure of speech. Go figure!
Finally, a clear logical mind and space to breathe.

Off the crazy roller coaster ride for now.

But I don't mind getting on another gentler ride. (:

Speaking of which, I was reminded of the time when I made future plans just 6 months back.

There was a lot of focus on education, further education & career,

Anything else that came, I told myself I'd deal with it as it comes.

Now that something and someone else appeared has set me some food for thought.

In fact, not just some, but much to ponder about.

I took out my blue print again, looked at it and thought,

Perhaps it might need some re-routing,

Perhaps after about a quarter of your life,

And some transitional phases,

It sets you to think about stuff that you never gave much attention before or thought that it might need change.

After some brain work, some facts sank in, some realizations came.

For now, let's just see how things go.

I trust and believe that certain things are worth the patience and the wait. (:

Monday, May 19, 2008

Better But Not All Well

After speaking to the matriarch,

It felt better to know that she is not against it.

That's one big relief.

But now that it is neither here nor there puts me in a spot.

It is really not that easy to 'just chuck it aside for now'.

When it comes, I guess you really can't shield or avoid it.

If I could control my feelings, then I wouldn't be this miserable.

I wonder if the feelings are mutual.

I can't believe I was roused and jolted up from my sleep every hour,

Scrambling to my hand phone to expect a reply.

Then drifting off to sleep again with knots and butterflies.

As the swim bud puts it,

I'm riding a roller coaster ride way faster than what I expected it to be.

And yes, we need to talk.
What ever happened to the Esther before this?

The always cool & calm person who knows what to do next instead of getting vexed over issues?

You might have the answer to it.

Sunday, May 18, 2008


Drifted off to sleep at 3+ am last night after a late night chat,

And 8.30am I'm awake.

Guess I've been waking up early these few days,

8.30am? Already in school eating breakfast,

So the body says wake up.

Furthermore, can't really sleep in peace with thoughts flooding my mind.

Nice thoughts, but keeps me awake.
It happened in a flash.

It's still taking time to sink in.

But if it's meant to be, it will be.

Right Mr. Beasley? (:

Tug and tug my strings away... ... ...
With the league of events happening,

School, essays, tuition, hot weather and the queasy feelings,

Just about what it takes to get me to lose appetite and spill soup on myself.

Just not quite me.

Someone give me a hug please.
A Good One

It was a lil' awkward at dinner,

But great sharing over drinking.

The company does matter.

I guess that's what they say by thinking along the same frequency,

And that's how communication work. (:

I enjoyed myself, hope you did too. (:

Saturday, May 17, 2008


The little things matter and it shows.
Sculptures and Architectures

And so today under the hot hot sun,

We went on a tour to view sculptures and buildings around Raffles Place.

Sculptures I've never seen before, building I've never too much notice of.

There are actually the most famous sculpture and building in Singapore.

Talk about arts huh.

And next time, when you pass by the BIRD sculpture by the UOB plaza, along the Singapore River,

Take a closer look at the back of the bird.

The sculpture is a whimsical one. (:

Speaking of which, the essays are due soon.

I like writing essays, but not when I'm distracted.

Distracted by people...

Friday, May 16, 2008

2nd Field Trip!

On Wednesday, I visited the Singapore Art Museum for the first time,

And stared at paintings.

At least they don't look Greek to me now.

Tomorrow morning, we're going on our next field trip!

Away, away, away to see sculptures and architecture around Singapore.

Anyone wanna crash class or have lunch with me after that?

Drop me an sms. (:

Thursday, May 15, 2008

The Arts

I'm immersed in the world of arts,

Paintings, sculptures, plays, architecture, land scape architecture...

Much as it is something relatively new,

It is interesting to have designed my own outdoor landscape as classwork.

Ta-da! Ok, My art never surpassed C5 when I was in secondary school,

And hence why I was in the Science stream and not the arts.

I did my best ok.

It is an outdoor garden... (If you can't recognize it.)

It's from an aerial view. *Click to enlarge*

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Meeting People

I like meeting people for now.

Sometimes I just don't feel like talking.

But with the right people, nice conversations are nice. (:

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

A Close to a Chapter

Yet, a close to another chapter.

It ended peacefully.

No faults involved, no grudges.

Some memories are meant to be kept,

Some to be buried.

Thanks to the buddies who were always there.

Meanwhile, just let me look forward to my holiday,

And be patient for Mr. Beasley to appear. (;

Monday, May 12, 2008

I Feel Like a Candle

Burning strongly on one side are the studies and the tuition,

On the other side not so strongly are Toastmasters and social life.

In the middle, where it's getting the most fuel,

It's attempting to break the candle,

And get myself burnt out in no time.


Blow out one side and all will be fine.

Sunday, May 11, 2008


Phew, a sigh of relief.

I'm feeling much more relieved.

It will do me better.
To all mothers out there & Mum as well,

3 Weeks.

3 weeks have passed, doesn't feel like it eh?

Seems longer than it is.

And finally I can sit down on a Sunday afternoon in front of the computer.

My student has decided to head out instead since her exams are over,

Thus, 2nd tuition for the day cancelled.

Alas I can spend some time tidying up some academia stuff for the new module,

And of course to spend some time blogging and poking my ds!

A look at my calendar and finances are gonna be tight this month.

Let's see how it goes,

At most eat my 3 meals home everyday.
Yet another module awaits

Philosophy down!

It was great with the lectures, but not with the assignment.

I'm so excited because our next module comprises of field trips!

How nice.

The textbook's alright, with boring bits in between,

But well, more general knowledge about Arts await.

Friday, May 09, 2008


Ladies and gentlemen,

Advertising results are out on OCU's website.

I've got a booster jab,

More motivation to read 'Perceiving the Arts: An Introduction to the Humanities'.

What after seemed so long...

I'm heading out to celebrate!


I know plans don't always go the way they are,

There could be unexpected changes or unforeseen circumstances.

But I can't help but feel that sian-ness whenever plans don't go my way,

Be it for major stuff or minor ones.

Maybe I'm still a perfectionist that has not learnt her lesson,

But at least I don't react as greatly as I would compared to as before.

I learn to take things in my stride.

While I'm feeling ok,

The emotions linger...

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Grey Areas

We all know that sometimes not only black and white exist,

But grey areas too.

And sometimes the grey area gets distracting.

It's not a yes nor a no, but 'i dunno'.

Much as I know there are grey areas,

I try and avoid some of those as far as I can.

Example: if you want to tell me something, then tell. (Black)

If you don't want to tell me yet, don't tell. (White)

Don't tell me that you got something to tell me, but not now. (Grey)

Hanging me in the air is something I don't really like.

I can't concentrate on other things since I'm left to guess what is it that you wanted to tell me.

It can get the better of me.

Sometimes it's just not the right time.

I'm frustrated, irritated and pissed...
Just about not the best time.




Post #300 and it ends on a bad note.

Ride the wave with me and slide DOWN DOwn down.

Down to the abyss,

A cold, dark, icy and quiet place where the unknown dominates...

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Zapping Energy

Great, the first part of the week before school is over.

So is the draining part of the week.

Mid-year exams for tuition kids is this week.

No more tuitions for this week. YES!

Now that the textbook is safely home, it's time for some head burying.

One day I was just picking up a book to read,

Was a little sian to find that my reading speed has decreased like i-dunno-how-to-describe.

Must catch up, must catch up.

Besides the usual stuff, one person has successfully taken away my stoning time,

Guilty as charged.

Let's hope schedules change after this week.

It'll be much easier and less draining.

Monday, May 05, 2008


I'm glad it got strengthened and it didn't end up as it was.

Negotiations are hard, difficult and painful.

But I guess rocky roads are worth the hike.

And what comes after is sweet...

You are loved. (:

Saturday, May 03, 2008

I feel loved. (:

Need I say more? :D


Thursday, May 01, 2008

Sinking in

And yup, the feeling is starting to sink in.

Bit by bit, drop by drop, but it is. :D
Mish Mash of Feelings

It comes, it goes.

It makes me feel queasy and uneasy.

It brings about other thoughts.

There are probably much more to tell and much more to know.

Let's just let it go slow.

It's scary to tread into new waters.