Sunday, October 24, 2010

One of my Firsts

Today I accompanied mum to watch Fong Fei Fei's world concert tour. Hmm, singer of my mum's generation but I like her songs too. Tonight was my mum and mine's first live concert at the indoor stadium. At a point in time, I thought I'd never be able to afford concerts as such, but today came the day. I was glad that mum enjoyed it.

Throughout the concert, what the singer said and sang made me think, and gave me mixed emotions. The 56-year-old diva looked back to when she started her singing career, and reflected on what can make her tear and laugh the most. It was singing on stage. So every chance at performing on stage, she would do it most sincerely, to the best of her ability. She told herself to persevere no matter how hard the journey, because one day, she will succeed if she pressed on. There she is, holding world tours into her fifties.

That, made me think about my career. Would I get into something that I really enjoying doing with great passion? Something that can make me feel so strongly about to move myself to tears or to laugh in delight. I'm not sure. But I'm sure I'm not in the right career at this point in time.

For a singer, the sense of satisfaction I believe, comes from the applause and the support of her fans. When she sang her finale piece, she teared. Well, she tears without fail every time she sings that song. And I fully understand why. Because it has the ability to make me tear too.

What can give me the sense of satisfaction equivalent to this? I don't know. It probably took Fong maybe a decade to find that. I wonder how long in my case, stuck in the rat race.

Concerts as such always in turn make me think about my situation. I think concerts like that are inspirational and motivational. Lookin' forward to the next one in December.

Meanwhile, the hunt begins again.