Monday, May 25, 2009

Listening Without Prejudice

It's getting harder, it's getting even more difficult than ever. I just can't help but have disappointing, angry and frustrating thoughts when I listen to you talk about that particular topic. I try to listen, but the emotions just dominate: don't look at her in the eye when she talks, don't give any reactions to that.

Isn't it enough to go through tough times once? Why do I have to go through it again? I'm not even responsible for it. I'm not even related to the tiniest bit. Why must it affect me? Seriously, it's not even my problem.

As I've said before, "I've never wanted somebody to die in my life before." I wonder how such thoughts can even appear - in my mind...