Merry merry Christmas everyone!

Same Old Nagging Matter.

The same thing upsets me over and over and over, not the first or second time. When can we see an end to this? Maybe adding one more ball to your juggling act is too much for your hands.

Sighs.

More Thoughts.

Can't help but sigh. What to do?

Sigh.

Setting expectations right is imperative for it to work out. You really need to set some time aside and sit down with me to get this out right. We shouldn't let this happen again. I'm afraid while I can let it go this time and probably the next few, I don't know how long more I can put up with it. 

Maybe you are not ready, as much as you want it to happen. It just so happens that, and it goes the same for everyone else, this requires certain sacrifices from current commitments to commit to something new. Maybe you should think about whether you are truly ready to give up certain things for this.

No excuses. I can't be telling you what to do all the time. Time to work out the brain juice and think logically what next to do. It's not rocket science, it's really common sense most of the time. If you can't take out time to do this, maybe you are not ready. Then it's time to rethink.

Communication is essential for anything to work. 

I feel so ambivalent now. Sometimes I wonder if I have to put up with whatever's happening. Not happy, definitely not.

Thoughts.

It's amazing upon discovering and coming to realization how I can give something/someone up easily if I really want to. Can't meet the expectations? Someone else probably can or will. Or do I even need that someone else?

Read in the papers today about women cheating in today's society. Sure men and marriage are not something that women need in their lives today, especially if it's becoming a painful experience altogether. I suppose that explains the divorce rates nowadays. We are capable of being financially independent and we know how to fill emotional voids.

Just some thoughts to pass the Sunday afternoon before a date. Oh well.

The Tinge of Fear.

This is coming with a tinge of fear. Fear that letting yourself deep and hard into it will make you also fall out hard.

The Start of Something New?

A new chapter began, a week ago. It's nice.

Let's give it a shot and see what it leads to.

A Late Night.

Can't sleep yet 'cause I got home slightly after 11 from a farewell dinner for an ex-colleague. A couple of things on my mind while I'm trying to cool off before going to bed. This is a good avenue to mention them.

1. We presented to a potential client this morning. Of which, I sent the deck to my boss last evening for him to look through and prepare, since he and the creative guy would be presenting. But knowing how things can go wrong, I took time this morning to mentally rehearse, just in case everything goes wrong. Everything went okay though, boss presented the front parts, the creative guys on the creative parts. Until the end of the presentation which required some explaining on the campaign audit, my boss gave me the eye, nodding as though asking me to present those. I went ahead. Although not as smooth as my golden toastmaster days, I think it was okay since I didn't really rehearse. I didn't bull shit, I spoke logically. Thank god for impromptu speaking skill training from table topics.

Bro thinks that boss chut stunt, mum thinks that da boss is just testing water to see if I did my homework. Of course I did lah... For one, I cannot not know what's going on since I'm one of the project owners. Two, obviously I can't let everyone and my agency look bad in front of the client right? I really wonder what is the agenda behind it. But we will know in time. We shall see.

2. One of my clients resigned and will be leaving this week. She isn't the nicest or easiest client around. We started off not on a very good note. But among those were good periods of working relationship that got things moving.

I sent her a personal note wishing her all the best, and of course nice things. No white washing, I wrote with sincerity, it was not a cut and paste note from the net. I thought that it's just being nice on my part and a formality.

Boss calls me a drama queen, but I bet somewhere in you know that I did the right thing. Everyone I mentioned this to, agrees.

I guess that's why we say, project management is about doing things right, leadership is about doing the right things.

Topsy Turvy.

I survived my 6 months. Things are changing however. When I was super duper swarmed one week, one of my major projects was diverted to another person while I handled another account. Since then, the new client who didn't exactly get her way does not want to work with me anymore, most probably perhaps I'm "stricter with her", as my boss puts it. We had a conflict the moment she took over the account, and I didn't really give in. Even with new ads, she prefers that my partner-in-crime takes over for "one point of contact". Boss says to let it go and remarked that I should be happy not having to work with her. Told me not to kill myself and participate in other stuff instead. Well, all her other colleagues have the one point of contact - me, except her. Oh well, whatever. Guess I just have to go with the flow, help out with a pitch and learn more stuff.

A copywriter tendered her resignation two weeks ago. Last that I heard today, da boss hasn't found a suitable replacement. There are a few things that can happen:

1. Work is diverted to the other writers.
2. Boss does it himself. (Which he wouldn't have time to vet some tons of ads a day.)
3. Grab someone who has writing experience to help out.

That someone could jolly well be me. I'm a little worried that it would be me. I really don't wanna write anymore, although some copyvetting is still fine, if I'm not busy.

Let's just wait and see. Meanwhile, I have fallen victim to viruses. Runny nose, sneezing, sore throat, body aches. Can't afford a MC in the next 4 weeks - crunch time. How?

Frustration Vent Required.

Don't say I agreed to something when I did not.
You are putting words in my mouth and being unethical.

Don't try and play dirty and put the blame on us.
When you are the one who can't do project management.

If you committed something internally and can't deliver, don't point fingers at us.
We did not commit/agree to a time in the first place.

If you can't take no for an answer, too bad.
Because I don't have to agree with you.

If you can't manage a project, I feel sorry for you.
Especially if you are new, and trying hard not to screw up.

I never had such problems with your colleagues before.
So when it happens when you come in, then we don't have to say very much what's wrong.

Be defensive all you want, the world is looking.

I won't play punk and screw up stuff for you, but please at least be ethical.