A Shorter Week Ahead.

It's a 4-day work week! But I'm not dreading to work. That's a change for once. I'm looking forward to some news I hope I get to hear.

Random stuff:

1. I no longer get headaches from thinking so hard now. Yipee!

2. I bought 4 shirts of the same series from Bossini. New shirts! Whee!

3. Bought a 6-CD compilation of love songs. More variety in my iPod. :)

4. I feel like you are getting too close to me. I'm feeling uncomfortable. More space in between us please.

5. Nothing random that comes to mind at the moment.

Till next time I still got the energy and brain juice to blog.

Happier

After I tweaked my mindset to concentrate on the positive things at work, things have changed for the better. I'm much happier, I'm better at what I'm doing, I got praised for improvement. Positive change, yes indeed. I'm smiling more, talking more and just enjoying what I'm doing for money.

More positive things will come my way. Just like how, although we didn't get the pitch for external communications, we got the internal one, and they used my line. Hell, my one-liner is going global. Freaking cool!

Where Do We Go From Here?

I'm not sure what's my calling in life, but I'm in the midst of searching. I don't want my life to just revolve around Monday blues, surviving the 5-day work week, enjoying the weekends, then back to work. Then get the salary, and that's the way to survive. Not how I want to lead my life for the next couple of decades.

So what's next? I don't want to dread going to work, at least I'm dreading it this coming week. I want to always look forward to work.

I'm lost. I can't see my ultimate destination. I need to see that so that I can plan my path. Otherwise, this is misery. Time to sit myself down to think about it, or time to be more conscious of things around me, to find that "destination".

Pretty deep, yeah I know. But I don't want to be just working for the sake of working, lead through life the usual way everyone does and that's it. Argh, life can be so frustrating after school.

Occupation Stuff

I read and write so much at work, that I don't feel like doing any of it when I'm at home. Not even newspapers or storybooks or magazines or whatever.

It takes up a lot of concentration to think deep and write. I just want that mental break. Blogging reminds me of work. :(

If I had a choice, I'd move to become editorial assistant of a magazine. Less deep on the thinking, more space and words for me to use to express my thoughts.

Oh, let's see how it goes.

Reflections For The Day

The day started out pretty nicely, except for the fact that I didn't get enough sleep the night before. But when I was reminded of the pitch, I suddenly felt under-appreciated and demoralized over the entire incident because my effort was not recognized. I managed to get over it, and realize that I have no control over wanting someone to recognize my effort. Then I began to thank for the opportunity to be involved, for this marketing person to like my idea and I'm glad that my idea has the opportunity to be seen worldwide.

Next, a new job came in for me. Tough one because it's full of technical jargon, and it's something totally new. Yet, now I'm more knowledgeable in wireless network solutions, which I'm pretty impressed with myself for being able to grasp the concept so fast.

Today was International Speech & Table Topics Contest at Toastmasters. I kinda regretted not going. But I was put in another situation to understand certain things, and be enlightened by some things.

I shall stop doing something I'm currently doing, because I think it's morally wrong. And hey, I need more time for Toastmasters. My positive energy gets drained by the day. There's only so much you can do, there's only so much I can do to cultivate the habit of being positive everyday. I need that recharge too.

Being in Control and Being Positive

After a conversation, many realizations sunk in. Sometimes being in control doesn't mean having the power to make decisions, but rather the freedom to make a personal choice such that I am in control.

Being positive is also about focusing on the things I have control over. Not over things I have no control over. Like being upset over how some people do certain stupid things.

It's time to find my purpose in life. Maybe I've found it, but I need to reaffirm it. Then it'd be time to make new decisions. (:

Pretty Glad.

I was glad you came out despite your throbbing headache. I appreciate that. And I seriously wonder how you stay that chirpy with the "hammer" constantly hitting into your skull.

Just a little disappointed that it had to end earlier. Nonetheless, I had a relatively good time although it was short. It's ok. I hope over the next one, you'd be refreshed, more.

So...

2 months into the job. I feel exasperated, not-valued, insignificant, sideline, unappreciated. Especially after a particular trigger.

Where's there left for me to stay? There are actually. Just that I'm wondering if it's worth the opportunity costs.

A colleague has been asked to leave. A colleague is leaving. A colleague is planning to leave. Blah. People that I have bonded with during our KL company trip. Oh well. Change is the only constant, right?

It was nice having dinner today. Well, the chat was nicer. There's just something that clicks. Ah, just had a nice time. Sitting and chatting over things.

It's Friday. Time for some well-deserved rest.